ScatteredWings http://www.scatteredwings.com personal, blog, thoughts, school, work, poems, writing, stories Tue, 11 Nov 2008 21:45:27 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.5 en Troubles but fun ahead! http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/troubles-but-fun-ahead/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/troubles-but-fun-ahead/#comments Tue, 11 Nov 2008 21:41:54 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/?p=58 Lately things are starting to get difficult again, the school year started fine but now school puts me in a difficult position, telling me I can’t do it, that my past is not suitable to have when doing this social job. I have two opinions about this matter, 1 I can’t do it, 2 it’s bullshit I can do this, and school makes it a bigger problem then it is.
Situation 5 days at home, 2 days school.

I notice I feel bad about this whole situation, and start to feel that I don’t care anymore and it start to spread.
Beside that I was almost hit by a car the other day, asshole! Not that I really cared by my mood.

Every friday I’m in this group thing, and so far it’s not that bad, no that I say much but ey.

BUT NOW THE REALLY COOL THING IS…….I AM GOING TO THE KAISER CHIEFS!!!!! 16-02-2009 in Amsterdam! I will go there with my BUDDIE, Nikki

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/troubles-but-fun-ahead/feed/ Me was gone http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/me-was-gone/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/me-was-gone/#comments Thu, 21 Aug 2008 15:51:25 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/?p=57 So it has been a while since I posted anything on my site. In a week my school starts again and my vacation is over. I haven’t been doing much in this time, I went to my Buddie Nikki, she was giving her late party after all. It was a lot of fun! And all other people who where there where nice too!

Tomorrow I’m going to Zwolle with Nikki, go shopping weeeeeeeee! I was cleaning op my closet and stuff now it seemed I have a major clothing problem, almost everything has become to small and ugly, so it’s time for some new!

Another thing I emailed the server this site is hosted on to stop my site. But I was to late for the coming year so it has been added another year, so you can enjoy another scatteredwings year. I hope to update more often again.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/me-was-gone/feed/ Talking to myself http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/talking-to-myself/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/talking-to-myself/#comments Wed, 28 May 2008 20:23:11 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/?p=52 So I’m in doubt if I accept my life the way it is now, or do I want more (meaning feeling better and be more social). Then I come to the point is that possible? Now I am writing this I just remember I was kind of writing about the same subject, so I stop. It won’t help while I keep moaning about it.

I am really badly looking forward to my next appointment (actually a real psychologist I saw on my appointment card, phew that has been a while)

At work it went alright, I had to lead a groepsession with all men. We did a quiz and who answered a question right got a point. To make it a little competative. They didn’t seem to really like it, but they al participated well. 18th of june I and anoter someone working there, go with that same group of men to Emmen to a zoo. Sounds cool to me!

Website-name contest

Anyone who knows a good name for the site please send your idea in! (just comment)
I think I am in need of a new name…domain…who knows.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/talking-to-myself/feed/ Driving is speed http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/driving-is-speed/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/driving-is-speed/#comments Thu, 22 May 2008 10:55:34 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/?p=51 The past Monday I failed to get my drivers license. I panicked after I understood that I needed to park the car. It was a narrow road so there wasn’t any possibility to park the car. I panicked and after that some minor mistakes like not looking good enough and stuff. Later on I was explained that I had to turn the car around instead of parking so if I had just heard that right, then there was a good chance nothing went wrong cause I wouldn’t have been in panic and stuff.

My next exam will be at 2th of July. I hope I will pass then.

School sucks again, I sure don’t know how I am going to finish this year. Also my parents want me to get a job for summer. So I probably am going to work at GAMMA in the shop. But I don’t look forward to that I really think I need to get a break, I mean I have been working so hard the past year, did do everything again for better and for worse. But I am still standing. And won’t I go over the top when I have to work 5 days a week? No rest, and I haven’t got any the whole year is my feeling.

I am tired, and medication is not helping that! Tomorrow my blood gets checked again for the right dose. Maybe to start lowering it. Don’t know whats best, I sure don’t want to get back like I was,… Or maybe do? It sure is easier in a weird way, not that I liked it. Definately not! So this is better but it doesn’t feel like it or something, it’s hard.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/driving-is-speed/feed/ You never know http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/you-never-know/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/you-never-know/#comments Mon, 12 May 2008 20:28:25 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/?p=49 So I had like over 200 spam comments!!!! Took me a while to delete the mother fuckers!

I joined another fanlisting: Modern Way

I bought a laptop Toshiba Portege M200, it’s a tablet notebook.

Today I actually started again with some assignments for school I was really lacking motivation for a while but today it went fine.

I also have a new therapist and he seems great! I really liked him and the way he was talking to me, and listening. He gave me an article about introversion, while everybody sees that as an disadvantage in this community there are actually advantages! In this world extraversion is more accepted and needed, and introversion is seen as a sort of illness which is not good.

So basically he asked me what do I still need, and I don’t know while I have been thinking about that for a while. I’m normally functioning but to say I’m happy? No. But do I accept de 6 or do I want more? Is there more? Do I accept my social behavior, or do I want to do better? Can I do better? All very difficult questions and he just fully understood what I said about it. Now we are going to make a new plan for how to go on, and how to reach the goals. I look forward to the next appointment when he will also come with ‘solutions’ options how to reach the things I mentioned.

I have like 8/9 weeks to go for my study this year it will be a hard task to make all those assignments. The good thing is I will always go to 2th year. But I have to do the remaining assignments I didn’t finish next year. So it costs time in the end.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/you-never-know/feed/ And may today be the day http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/and-may-today-be-the-day/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/and-may-today-be-the-day/#comments Wed, 23 Apr 2008 19:00:55 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/and-may-today-be-the-day/ Phew what a day, I’m like really tired!  I was at my work thing (I really don’t know how to call it it’s not really work I need to do it for school so)  and arround 16.00 I had 2 hours of driving lessons!

Work was cool, kooking and making cards with the people. Not for everyone though it is going well and I really try to do something for them and at least listen to their stories.  around 14.30 the people who like go singing and I helped with that too, not that I can sing! That was finished at like uhm 15.40 and at 16.00 the car for my driving lessons drove for the building and I was like soooo tired and sleepy and was like “oh nooo do I have to?” but yeah I had.

Driving is going average I have had like 30 lessons now (I think) and I am totally not capable of parking and all other difficult stuff! It is really a lot harder then I thought it should be! 19th May is my exam I believe, so the time is getting shorter!

I bought 2 dvd’s the other day:

Good Will Hunting and I am Sam, the first one I have just finished watching it sure is a good movie but I must say I expected more of it but it is worth watching.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/and-may-today-be-the-day/feed/ New layout http://www.scatteredwings.com/updates/new-layout-2/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/updates/new-layout-2/#comments Tue, 22 Apr 2008 20:37:36 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/updates/new-layout-2/ So people it’s me…remember me?..Noo?…..oh

I made this new layout a really actually drawed that rainbow  :shock:  isn’t it lovely?

I was like in a summer mood it has been great weather lately so!

It’s like my bedtime now so this was my short come-back! More soon!

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/updates/new-layout-2/feed/ Happy New Year! http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/happy-new-year/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/happy-new-year/#comments Fri, 04 Jan 2008 20:01:57 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/happy-new-year/ Happy New Year that’s what I want to say!

It is a bit late I know, don’t know why I haven’t been updating lately my bad!

I just don’t know what to write about. Tomorrow I have my first cycling training! gonna be hard because I haven’t really been cycling  that much to practise it is so damn cold!!!

I hope it will be a great year!

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/happy-new-year/feed/ My bike! http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/my-bike/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/my-bike/#comments Mon, 03 Dec 2007 19:14:34 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/my-bike/ Wooow the past wednesday I got my bike!


Painting of my sister

Saturday I made my first miles with it, and phew my condition sucks  :razz: But yeah I enjoyed it! Too bad the weather is like hell, so it isn’t really cycling weather.

]]> http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/my-bike/feed/ I was there http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/i-was-there/ http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/i-was-there/#comments Mon, 26 Nov 2007 17:33:10 +0000 Christel http://www.scatteredwings.com/my-life/i-was-there/ So I have been really busy with doing nothing and everything at the same time. For school I need to write a poem for coming Friday, and well I don’t think I’m able to write something new, so I think I’m going to use one I wrote some time way before now. So my question basically is; Which poem do you guys like best of those on my site? please let me know that would be nice.

Saturday I went to 2 cycling shops, and bought a black race bike which I can come pick up ready for use next Wednesday! I have tried a bike man it’s cool, but weird I really have to make some miles before I get used to the style of cycling, and switching gears and stuff. But hey I think I’m going to like it.

I actually did some homework lately, and got 2 stuff I made for a class back with a “perfectly done” comment! So that’s going well, and as I see other people doing it(or not doing it) then I do it good. Tomorrow there is this parent thing about our class, parents can see what we do and stuff, get a nice talk from our tutor and see our “Identity Boxes”. Boring and badly organised by our class (we had to do all the organising things as a project).

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